relapse & reality

relapse is an integral part of recovery for most folks.
of course there is always the exception in every meeting room.
some people like to refer to it as insanity;
but i dont see it as such. the desire to recapture the magic
of control exists in many alcoholics. we use assorted methods
of changing drinks or frequency. sort of a last ditch effort to
trick our brain into thinking we are reverting back to social use.

today, the thing that keeps me away from that first drink, is
remembering where the drink leads
the pattern is always the same; loss of control, and continuing
to the point of despair.

that path to failure has been proven many times
but i dont know what continued sobriety will bring
so if i just stick it out another day, i can avoid the inevitable.
and enjoy life with a clear head and a positive outlook.