This is what it all boils down to; making the daily choice between continued sobriety and my former lifestyle of drinking and drugging.
Some days it just takes the memory of getting another 24 hour coin.
I already have quite a collection from various meetings. I do not miss those feelings of guilt shame and remorse whatsoever.
Today I have to want to stay sober more than I want to drink. Sounds easy, right? It all depends on my mental, emotional and spiritual condition. Some days are easier than others, so I need to recognize that there are things that are out of my control and more importantly, there isn't anything that a drink or drug will make better. A big help to me is the Serenity Prayer, and the crucial key is the wisdom to know the difference. I often compare it to the line in the Kenny Rogers tune, "The Gambler"; "you got to know when to hold up, know when to fold up..."
Thursday, August 30, 2007
Posted by Fireman John at 7:40 PM