Thursday, December 13, 2007


The picture of my dog "China" has nothing to do with my post
today; just thought it was so damn cute, I couldn't resist!

We had about 10 inches of snow today, no biggie for me with my
kick-ass snow blower. It does kind of suck for anyone traveling.
Thankfully, Thursday is our in-house meeting--no driving required!

I still hate being an alcoholic; would prefer to be a normal social drinker.
Since that is not possible, I have come to accept my condition.
When I hear people announce proudly, "I'm grateful to be an alcoholic",
I want to scream, "are you friggin' nuts"!

What I AM grateful for, is the opportunity to recover my physical, mental,
emotional and spiritual health.

Still, at times, a drink looks alluring; I mean what harm could just one do?
Can you imagine my mind still asks that question?
Those are the times I'm reminded that this is never cured.

There will be no graduation ceremonies, next or any anniversary.

I think I'll continue to show up, own up and grow up.

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The Lone Beader® said...

Yea. WAY too much snow... :0

And, the things you are grateful for are very important in life. If you continue to remind yourself of that, you will continue to have strength:)

Shadow said...

can one ever get to the stage where one can say 'i'm okay with being an alcoholic'?

i have come so far, drink does not feature in my life as i used to, it doesn't bother me so much anymore, i don't crave it, but yes! i too would prefer to be a normal social drinker...

T.A.Z.E.M. said...

Dear Fireman John,
I have to say I am proud of what you are doing for yourself and others. I can see how you are plugging away one day at a time and concentrating on what you need to do, even if each day holds a different necessity. It looks like to me that you are looking at yourself in a light that most people don't have the balls to, even if you go back and forth in your mind on how you feel at least you are thinking and reflecting and that can make a world of difference in how you grow and change.
Sincerely a fellow Stumbler,

Kathy Lynne said...

Cute China! That is exactly how I feel. I would much rather "drink like my fellows" but like you said, I have learned that it is just not possible. I am not a stupid woman but it has taken me years to realize that. So no, I'm not grateful that I am an alcoholic but I am grateful for what has opened up to me in recovery.

Unknown said...

Kathy Lynne said...
I'm not grateful that I am an alcoholic but I am grateful for what has opened up to me in recovery.

Dear Kathy,
You are not an alcoholic, but a SINNER, just like me. The only thing that has opened up for you is SATANISM (AA).