it was hard to comprehend who i was
when i held onto the illusion of normalcy.
how could i be out of control when i was
doing such a great job working, being a
husband, father, firefighter, coach, friend
and all around good guy?
the reality of it was, all those facets of my
life became less and less important.
because the transition was so slow and
insidious, it was impossible to recognize.
i had to look at what i had become;
more dependent on the buzz, than
the aspects of my life that really
defined who i was.
today i am relearning who i am,
and what my life is about.
as long as i continue to honestly
scrutinize my behavior, i have a chance
to stay on the path of progressive wellness.
4 comments:
and that's the trick the mind wants us to believe... it wasn't that bad... in the meantime...
You know the addict inside never wants us to find out who we really are, because we might just like ourselves just the way we are, you are on the right path..
Are we relearning or just continuing to learn about ourselves? It is an intersting journey isn't it ? Yours certainly does!Keep sharing :)
"more dependent on the buzz, than
the aspects of my life that really
defined who i was."
That says it all....
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