Today I have freedom from the ball & chain of addiction.
My thoughts and actions are not consumed with the endless process of the drinking obsession.
Although I don't find that sobriety is any guarantee of happiness, it does allow the choice to be happy. My life isn't as exciting as it once was; but it certainly is more stable, and has a serene level of contentment.
The joy I derive from helping another addict is two fold; the action helps me give something back, to the program, and to my self-worth. Many times I wish everyone attempting sobriety would be able to stick around long enough to break through the barriers that block them.
A friend of mine, Sandy often says, "hang on to your seat, and enjoy the ride"; so true because there are times when that's all I can do.
Life goes on, and just because I'm not drinking does not mean all will be sunshine, lollipops and rainbows. What I do find is that I can face reality and look myself in the mirror everyday
and say "I'm ready for whatever life has for me today".
Wednesday, September 26, 2007
Posted by Fireman John at 11:33 AM